The Willingness to surrender the payoff of the ego allows you to let everything go experientially as it arises. This includes the payoff of grief, anger, resentment, or hatred. With surrender, you have to choose. What do you surrender to God in the way of surrender? What does devotion mean? I love thee, Oh Lord, greater than I love the glee I get out of my hatreds, my wickedness, my shame, my guilt, my revenge. Either you love God or you love self-pity. It’s always really a choice. Am I willing to surrender this for the love of God, or not? To become enlightened, that power has to be strong. You have to be willing to give up everything for God…This is because at the last moment before the ultimate experience reveals itself ( or condition takes over, rather), you will be asked to surrender your life.
The Wisdom of Dr. David R. Hawkins, Ch. 5, pg. 69-70
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