Through inner observation, there is the realization of something that remains constant and the same, no matter what goes on in the external world or with the body, emotions, or mind. With this awareness comes a state of total freedom. The inner Self has been discovered. The silent state of Awareness that underlies all movement, activity, sound, feeling, and thought is discovered to be a timeless dimension of peace. Once identified with this Awareness, we are no longer at the effect of the world, the body, or the mind, and with this Awareness come an inner calmness, stillness, and a profound sense of inner peace.
“Everybody has their quirks. So easygoing-ness of course is an ideal which most of us find difficult to be that way all the time. So, some of these qualities, the value they have to us is they act like pointers. When something throws you out of easygoing-ness, that’s something in your self. So, all these things are valuable. Therefore, you take what you consider, from a spiritual viewpoint, a negative and you turn it into a positive. It’s like a light going on “Look here” “Look here” “Look here”… So, when you’re not easy going, when you’re not thoughtful, when you’re not tolerant, when you’re not calm, etc. then that is pulling up something that you gotta clear.
And how do you clear it. You clear it by looking within yourself and finding it there, owning it, forgiving yourself for it, because everyone is a fallible human being. So the kindness that you show to yourself, the willingness to forgive yourself, then transfers into willingness to forgive others out there.
So, instead of feeling guilt about the negative, what you do is ya turn lemons into lemonade.”
In an acute catastrophic situation, the mind tries to cling to that which is familiar. It tries escapism, distractions, tranquilizers, drugs and alcohol, and various other ways of trying to ameliorate the situation rather than face it directly and work through it.
The essence of a catastrophic situation is total surrender to the discovery of that which is greater than the personal self. The experiencing through completely of a catastrophe brings us into a connection and a realization that there is something within ourselves that has the power to sustain, no matter how catastrophic the experience appears to be. As a result, we come out on the other side of it as a greater person with the awareness that there is something within, that there is a Presence, a quality, or an aspect of life within that has the power to sustain us through the most seemingly impossible situations.
“Happily, you don’t have to deal with the content of mind, because the only thing you have to notice about it, is that what it’s doing, it’s doing spontaneously. It’s not the content of mind that’s interesting at all, what is of interest is the process of mind, it’s going on of its own. It has nothing to do with you, couldn’t care less about you. It’ll say very nasty things about you, you know what the mind does. “You’re guilty, you’re weak, you’re wasting your money, you’re a creep!” You can’t trust the mind at all, it’s not even your friend. It’s not even a friend. It just goes on and willy-nilly says all kinds of, when it runs out of thoughts, it’ll say, ibbity bibbity boo, boppity, bop, bop, bop. Picture some erotic scene from some movie when you were a teenager. It’ll think of something horrible about the future. Oh my, when the mind gets threatened with no thoughts, it really gets wild, it’ll just do anything crazy, think of stabbing yourself or something. You know, it’ll just do anything bizarre to keep going. When you look at the mind, then, don’t be bothered with it. It’s an endless phantasmagoria. I like that word, phantasmagoria. It just proliferates endless BS.”
“Beneath thinkingness, beneath feelingness, beneath all ideology, beneath all form, there’s that which is non-form, that which you call “me”, the Self. If I take off one leg you’re still me, if I take off another leg you’re still me, if I take off an ear, you’re still me. The “me” is not the physical body, because we can remove it piece by piece and you’ll still say, “I’m me”. Donovan’s brain sitting there thinks I’m still me. The sense of self then is independent of physicality. To know that, you know you’re not the physical body. The sense of self does not change with thinkingness. Certainly as one gets older one’s thinkingness can totally change about just about everything, and yet the sense of I, the Self, is not changed, the Atman, the Self, Self with a capital S.
It seems strange to Christian tradition to call the presence of God within, Self with a capital S. Sounds strange and somewhat foreign. To those who are familiar with foreign spiritual literature it is not strange, but to people with a Christian background it seems strange to call the center, the core of one’s existence, Self with a capital S. Soul is more acceptable. To experience one’s soul then, one’s eternal soul, as one’s reality would become closer to common Christian thinking. As the awareness, as the reality unfolds, there is no difference between that which you are, there is no difference between God immanent and God transcendent. Those are just styles of languaging. That which is the source of one’s own existence is not different than that which is the source and the essence of all of the universe throughout all of time. That’s the first stunning awareness, that one ever even worried about life seems like the ultimate joke. How one could have forgotten such a stunning and obvious reality is rather startling. That which shines forth, that which shines forth and gives one a sense of reality, you see, you accept a sense of reality of your experience without question. Why should you experience that which you experience as reality? Is there something out there that would give a special sense of reality? You see how you just assume that as a given. That which you’re looking for is that which you overlooked because you assume it as a given. That which you assume as a given is exactly that which you’re trying to find.
It’s like you’re so used to living in space that you fail to recognize space anymore, you just take space for granted. It’s miraculous that one can experience anything. It’s miraculous to have the capacity to experience. Does a rock experience? To be conscious, to be aware, to experience one’s own existence, is already a rather incredible event, but we take it for granted. But once one grasps the significance of that, you realize to exist and be aware that you exist is miraculous. The miracle of one’s existence, of thee O’Lord, I am. Without God you would not exist, and the source of one’s existence is not different than the core of that which you are. So the soul cannot be “not-God”, it can only be part and parcel of all that exists in a particular expression.”