The Miracle of One’s Existence

“Beneath thinkingness, beneath feelingness, beneath all ideology, beneath all form, there’s that which is non-form, that which you call “me”, the Self. If I take off one leg you’re still me, if I take off another leg you’re still me, if I take off an ear, you’re still me. The “me” is not the physical body, because we can remove it piece by piece and you’ll still say, “I’m me”. Donovan’s brain sitting there thinks I’m still me. The sense of self then is independent of physicality. To know that, you know you’re not the physical body. The sense of self does not change with thinkingness. Certainly as one gets older one’s thinkingness can totally change about just about everything, and yet the sense of I, the Self, is not changed, the Atman, the Self, Self with a capital S.

It seems strange to Christian tradition to call the presence of God within, Self with a capital S. Sounds strange and somewhat foreign. To those who are familiar with foreign spiritual literature it is not strange, but to people with a Christian background it seems strange to call the center, the core of one’s existence, Self with a capital S. Soul is more acceptable. To experience one’s soul then, one’s eternal soul, as one’s reality would become closer to common Christian thinking. As the awareness, as the reality unfolds, there is no difference between that which you are, there is no difference between God immanent and God transcendent. Those are just styles of languaging. That which is the source of one’s own existence is not different than that which is the source and the essence of all of the universe throughout all of time. That’s the first stunning awareness, that one ever even worried about life seems like the ultimate joke. How one could have forgotten such a stunning and obvious reality is rather startling. That which shines forth, that which shines forth and gives one a sense of reality, you see, you accept a sense of reality of your experience without question. Why should you experience that which you experience as reality? Is there something out there that would give a special sense of reality? You see how you just assume that as a given. That which you’re looking for is that which you overlooked because you assume it as a given. That which you assume as a given is exactly that which you’re trying to find.

It’s like you’re so used to living in space that you fail to recognize space anymore, you just take space for granted. It’s miraculous that one can experience anything. It’s miraculous to have the capacity to experience. Does a rock experience? To be conscious, to be aware, to experience one’s own existence, is already a rather incredible event, but we take it for granted. But once one grasps the significance of that, you realize to exist and be aware that you exist is miraculous. The miracle of one’s existence, of thee O’Lord, I am. Without God you would not exist, and the source of one’s existence is not different than the core of that which you are. So the soul cannot be “not-God”, it can only be part and parcel of all that exists in a particular expression.”

from “God: Transcendent and Immanent” Nov 2002 dvd set

 

One thought on “The Miracle of One’s Existence”

  1. Beautiful! And a great practice to keep looking at the quality of subjectivity as the doorway…so great!

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